Gone too soon

I have dealt with a lot of difficult situations in my short 25 years…

Despite all, I still have a strong belief in God, but it always becomes rough when things and people are taken away. Experience has allowed me to understand that disappointment is necessary and patience is everything.

I've gained and lost so many things and people, I'm almost numb to it all. If I lose something, I work twice as hard to get a new one. If I get rejected, I learn how to become better.

When I got in to my car wreck in 2011, my life was literally put on hold as I settled in for 2 year (and counting) recovery. Even now, I'm still living in constant pain from it, yet during the entire ordeal, I never even shed a tear. I cracked jokes about the situation in the ER hospital bed, as my collar bone stuck straight out of my shoulder, no longer attached to the rest of my arm.

Life has often times, hit very hard, and through it all I have just become a hard person.

I can honestly say, the only thing that can ever really stun me is death. I don't care how long I've known the person, or the last time we spoke, death is the only thing that can bring me to tears. It's been hard losing friend after friend, family member after family member. I can't even use 2 hands to count the number of friends I've lost in the past 2 years.

Today has been exceptionally rough, as I found that another has been called to be with God.  He was a friend and like a big brother. He went by Mr. Know it all, because he really did know it all. He was there for the big things and the little ones. He was a tough critic and artist but one thing for sure is that he would be there to defend you if anyone so much as looked at you in a way he felt inappropriate.

While his memory is positive and the legacy he left behind will inspire so many, its difficult to know that when I go back to Kentucky, his smile will no longer be seen and his jokes will no longer be heard.

While I understand God said it was his time to go, I will never understand why the good die young! 30 is just too soon. Derek Fulson has selflessly helped so many. I love and miss you already big brother! You were was a great man here on earth, and have helped to mold so many great men behind you. Cancer Sucks! We most definitely need a cure!